I always felt as though I never fit in or was truly loved. I ran away at the age of 14 and continued running until the age of 48, always trying to escape myself. My life became a long, lonely road of self-destruction. I have seen and survived many years of self-inflicted drug and alcohol abuse, all of which brought about abusive relationships, lies, theft, prostitution, a brutal rape, jail cells and psychiatric wards. My childhood dream of becoming a nurse disappeared.
On January 14, 2014, I ended up in yet another psychiatric facility. Broken, desperate, and suicidal, I still felt blessed for a moment of clarity: acceptance set in that I was the problem. I was graced with the willingness to change.
I became receptive to treatment for addiction and open to suggestions to live differently. I entered a treatment facility and stayed there for nearly a month. The process of working on me had officially begun.
Through that process, I was introduced to the recovery community in Bucks County. It was suggested that I get involved. Soon after, I registered as a participant with the Southern Bucks Recovery Community Center and PRO-ACT.
The Recovery Community Center and PRO-ACT welcomed me into a safe and supportive environment. In February of 2014 they took a chance on me, and I became a volunteer. My passion for helping others once again returned. I volunteer nearly every day now. You can find me facilitating a Stress Management group or providing administrative support. The Center has become a life line for me.
At 4 ½ months clean and sober, I no longer feel isolated or like a social idiot. I have a grateful heart today and believe in myself once again. I am able to look forward to each new day because I start with the intention of how I may be of assistance to the next individual in recovery.
I want to thank the Recovery Center staff, PRO-ACT volunteers and the wonderful service participants for helping me along the way. I never imagined that I would be recognized for my efforts. For the month of June, SBRCC/PRO-ACT honored me with the distinction of being their “Volunteer of the Month.”
I have been blessed with the opportunity to live a productive and meaningful way of life today.
June 2014 Volunteer of the Month